Saturday, August 28, 2004
5:36 AM

...today.....friday liao....we went to science centre this morning to exhibite our school projects...ah....everyone all did veri well lah....we also saw the inventions of other schools....sooo good loh....we knew we still need to improve a lot lah.....
we chatted a lloonng time ,abt 2 hours mah....i knew what has really happened liao....i eventually knew y my chinese fris all treat me like tat .....im quite sad today....she said i changed a lot....definitely different from e time i just came...tat is tooo bad 4 me...i knew it....bt thanks god,i still have ly,she will always be there wif me de....really thanks her give me those advices n suggestions......i should think clearly in this coming weekend,i dun wan others think im tat kind of person....i know im not.......
one thing idun understand...y ppl always like using each other,there are no real love between ppl n the whole world seems so cold,empty,cruel n ......i dun enjoy using others,i oso dun wan be used by others.....I AM HURT BADLY AND SERIOUSLY..........
my world is dark and cloudy de....no real love around me.......my heart likees a solid ice,i need love and warmness to melt it.......bt whr is it?????i wondering..........
i expect it bt love(whtever wht kind of..) is belonged and controlled by fate.fate.....no fate.....no last de.......im really so sad........extremely sad.........whr is it ah????i ask god hopelessly......
today i cried when i was talking to her...i found i was really a poor gal......looks hapi usually,bt my life semmms really dark,DARK.........

[ this is how it all started* ]